Afraid of being ALONE?

I woke up alone on the bed one morning,not knowing where i was but i know i can't be anywhere else unless I was brought to somewhere because in my own consciousness i remember vividly where i was and where i belong to.I know this would happen one day as the older you become the smaller your circle of friends will be.It is either because i have become more choosy as in the friends that i will mix with or my friends have abandoned me along the way when we grow up.The latter sounds a little bit sad as i am the one being abandoned.The feeling of being abandoned or left behind is terrible and you wouldn't want it happen to you more than once unless it is unavoidable.But as it is in life,somethings are unavoidable and we seem not to be the one who is in control all the time as we wouldn't know what will happen next simply because life is so fragile and short as we spend our everyday life starting with waking up and end it with lying down on the bed again.You can choose not to sleep but after a few nights of burning midnight oils you will somehow feel worn out and need to get back to rest.One fact that we will have to admit we are all human beings who need rest so much if not our body will get worn out faster than it should be.But no matter what,we all need accompaniments as we get along with our life which seem to be so boring and mundane everyday.You wake up,get yourself washed up and be ready to face the people you will normally face everyday and then you will have to take in at least three meals for normal people and you will end your day by coming back tired,trying to find your favourite spot at home to relax then slowly go onto your bed after finishing your night meal.If there is no accompaniments in life,i can't imagine how it will be as there will be one to be with you and to share with you what you are going through every moment in life.As the saying goes,no man is an island.We can't just live on our own but we need our family members,friends,brothers and sisiters in christ and also relatives to support us in every step that we take.Human beings are always dependant on each other as we lead our life individually.Sometimes we are afraid to be alone because we simply cannot make a decision for ourself but we need affirmations from others on what we are doing and what we are going to do.Even sometimes we are so confident of doing it also we want others to know what we are doing simply just to get a word or a sentence of praise from the people we tell them.We will somehow feel better or proud of ourselves as we do that but it does not neccessary means we are proud and arrogant but we need just a 'yes' from our best friends as sometimes we will not be able to do to our best without them supporting us.Life will never be perfect though as we can see sometimes if we were to rely too much on our best friends or even our partner in life,we feel being betrayed or dissapointed as they stab us from our back or leave us when it is the time we need them most.Despite that,we still need them to be at our side knowing that's the possibilities which will happen.But we trust them that they would not do this to us.Talk about being in a relationsip,do we involve ourself in a relationship just because we need accompaniments or we feel the loneliness keep on growing in us which we need to overcome by getting a future partner in life or rather many youngsters call it boyfriend or girlfriend these days.When comes to a certain age,we will somehow like to mingle around with people of opposite sex as we have the extra hormones in us which make us extra active.We have the tendancy to wanting to be accompanied all the time especially for those from broken families.They do not have all the family's love and concern they need when comes to a certain point of age so they tend to revert to love from a friend of opposite sex.The love of God encompasses all of the love on earth which we can find,it is never what you will expect as it is from our parents or best friends but it comes as a surprise everyday as you draw closer to Him.Your love is amazing,steady and unchanging......here goes the song

Hallelujah (Your Love Is Amazing)
Written by Brenton Brown & Brian Doerksen

             G                         C2
Your love is amazing, steady and unchanging
               Dsus                        C2
Your love is a mountain, firm beneath my feet
              G                          C2
Your love is a mystery, how you gently lift me
             Dsus                        C2
When I am surrounded, your love carries me

(chorus)
      G          Dsus
Hallelujah, hallelujah
      Em7  C2
Hallelujah, your love makes me sing
      G          Dsus
Hallelujah, hallelujah
      Em7  C2
Hallelujah, your love makes me sing

              G                        C2
Your love is surprising, I can feel it rising
                   Dsus                   C2
All the joy that's growing deep inside of me
             G                          C2
Every time I see you, all your goodness shines through
                    Dsus                   C2
And I can feel this God song, rising up in me

© 2000 Vineyard Songs (UK/Eire)
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Album: Come Now is the Time to Worship
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Love is like riding a roller coaster,the higher and the faster it is,the more excitements you wil get.

It just feel strange when i decided to pen this down but to me it is something worthwhile to be recorded as i think it opens up the other side of me even though i might not be in a relationship but it is sufficient for me to enjoy this very moment itself.The romantic moments that you used to have just come back in a flip of coint without you knowing it and it keeps on growing.Nothing else can be more romantic than just to enjoy this moment itself.People say being in love is like discovering a piece of flower and as you discover more,you open up petal by petal of the flower.The more you open up,the more you will discover and it tastes sweet as how the flower seeds should be.For me it is like what i put the title as, riding a roller coaster which will never ends.When riding a roller coaster,you will not know what's in front to expect though the route which it will takes is fixed but yet surprises just keep on coming as you have no time to think of what's going to come next.It is fast no doubt as you decided to ride on it and i think it takes some patience too because most rides will need you to queue up long for it.It actually tests on your patience as well as you will need to queue up for it and there are so many more other interesting rides which are available but you have chose to wait for this ride which you are willing to sacrifice your time to wait for it.There might not be enough time for you to try all the other rides but you insist on this ride as you believe it will bring you to another height which will satisfies your soul and mind completely.It brings excitements as you will never expect it to be and some chose to hide the excitements by showing a pale white face,some will scream it out loud and some who can't take it will vomit straight away after probably a heavy meal.The person who shows a pale white face is a person who actually trying to hide their feelings by not revealing it to the person they like but not that they do not like the roller coaster ride,just that they are too shy or being careful not to scare the person thinking of the person may not like them.This type of person is playing on the safe side,observing and watching carefully from time to time to see if there is any chance to find out more about the person they like.The important question goes whether the person like them or not,whether the person is sharing the same feeling as they do.As for the second type of people,they are quite straight forward as they do not like to hide anything which came to them or probably i should say that they can't keep the words they have in their mind or heart.They have to throw it out as soon as possible then only they will feel comfortable.They cannot keep secret even to themselves,they have to confess everything that they have,whatever feelings that comes up to them towards another person.Now the third type of people,this type of people are not ready basically for any relationship to take place.They went for the ride thinking that it will be fun but they don't think of the consequences that they are going to face after going for the ride and they always think that they will be able to take it but in the end they fail to do so.Not only they can't take it but they have to push it away then only they feel regret about it.They do not know what they want but just thought that it will be fun to go for a ride probably to release some stress or get out from what they are busy doing to try on something new.They ended up hurting each other after the ride they took and some even do not bother one another after that.It is fun but serious at the same time whenever you want to take on a relationship,a relationship from friend to a level where both of you wanting to proceed with further progress.That's wonderful if both of you are willing to commit and to make that ride all the time fun.It pays to get a ride and you will definitely need to commit yourself towards the relationship,you won't get to enjoy the fun without any sacrifices.It is not just about the thrill of shouting out loud when the roller coaster goes higher or faster but the need to maintain that fun throughout the whole process.