Going into
the jungle for a hike is not something you would do every day unless you are a
hunter or the patrol warden who is in charge of the visitors’ safety. For me I think
my almost 2 years’ relationship is like going into the jungle for a hike too. I
am not a professional hunter or any warden in the jungle but just someone who
likes green a lot and do not mind exploring the jungle for more adventures.
Therefore I decided for myself that I wanted to do this hike because I think
this hike is suitable for me, not too steep and neither too flat for me. This
hike may not be specially customized route so that you can reach the peak faster
nor this hike is easy as I know from the very beginning but it is always the
process which counts and not the final result of the peak. Therefore whether it
is easy or not, I have decided for myself that I will pull through this
journey.
It is not
something which I can describe the kind of good feeling that this will be the
last hike I want to make as I make my way up to the peak. Therefore with that
feeling, I have decided to start my journey of hiking in this jungle with the
end of journey which is the peak in mind. As I walk in this journey, I felt
good and more convinced as each hour and each day brings us closer together
mentally, physically and emotionally as we experienced each other with our
unique characters. The main motivation for me to keep going is that I know I have
decided on this route and it will be my responsibility to ensure that we make
it to the peak together irregardless of different dreams or ambitions,
characters shaped or yet to be shaped, the future identities we see ourselves
to be etc. I know I tried many times to tell myself that this is a short term
sacrifice till we could find our better ways around in the jungle before we
could reach the peak as we know there are many ways to reach the peak. And I thought
we have decided on this route together whether it is going to be hard or easy,
whether there will be more hindrances, whether the bad weather is going to
come, whether there will be any at all more danger along the way, I thought we
have decided.
Indeed
after a year and 10 months exploring and searching for the route up to the
peak, again I thought I could see the end destination in my sight but only if
all things can be planned. Yes we did manage to make it to the peak just to realize
that this is just the first peak in a relationship and there are many more
peaks we could see but the big disappointment strikes when this journey has
been given up. Although I could see that we can go through the many more peaks
which I could see at the moment at least but the disappointment strikes right in
the middle of my heart which could be fatal like a heart attack. Would you dare
to continue this journey if you know the high chances of getting another heart
attack? Once a heart attack hits you, the chances of another hit could be
anytime like a time bomb therefore the answer is definitely a no.
Lessons
picked up:-
1) Do not
attempt to try to hike if you cannot even do a long marathon run as obviously
you might not have the right level of stamina to last you through
2) Make
sure the decision to hike together is being drilled into each other’s mind
before even to start the journey together into the jungle (change of mind half
way could only do more harm than if you decide not to hike together in the
first place)
3) Lastly
just be yourself, do not let any circumstances or the person whom you decided
to hike with change you as you know that there is only so little could be
changed but so much more to accept one another.
After all I
must say it was a good experience and let’s stay healthy for another better
hike in the future !